Wednesday, May 18, 2011

I feel so much better about myself when I am productive.

I feel so much better about myself when I am on the medication.


  1. I find myself feeling the same way (about the fist sentence). When I get things done I feel a sense of accomplishment and a "yes, i can do it" attitude, as well as relief and clearity. Other things that make me feel good is keeping busy. At work for example, when it is my lunch break I am done like in fifteen minutes. I then get up and start putting things away, clearing clutter, and cleaning up a bit. It does make me feel good about myself but also it is a form of stress-relief. I'm not sure if doing that is productive, it mostly just keeping busy, but nonetheless it helps. My supervisor wants me to "rest", but that is rest to me so I do it anyway.

    Sorry, I kind of wandered off there didn't I...

    I hope things are a lot better for you, at home, school, and personal life.

  2. Good to hear from you again, Karina. I also like the feeling of taking short lunch breaks, even though I don't get paid for 45 minutes.

    Things are...all right. I'm feeling kind of hopeless about my future because I've realized that I don't know that engineering is what I should have done with my life. I'm still interested in materials science, but...I don't know. I just feel like I want more from life than this constant tedium, but I don't know what. I've spent the last five years of my life preparing for nothing but this, so I don't know where else I would go from here.

    I dunno. Maybe things will look up. My beverage review ( has been growing lately and keeping my spirits up a bit, so that's good, at least.

    I hope you've been well. I must say that I miss reading your blog, but I totally understand being too busy to keep up with it. Mine's been falling a bit by the wayside, as well. I need to make a harder effort to keep up with my writing. It makes me feel better sometimes, and I hate that I don't have the time for it anymore.