Tuesday, November 30, 2010

I just spent three solid days preparing for an economics presentation that my partner and I had to give today.

We were allotted ten minutes.

We did not finish.

When I sat back down after being cut off by the professor, I was, as one can imagine, rather upset.

But something was different this time.

Something inside of me changed today.

I came to accept a fact that I had never before felt justified in believing.

No matter how hard I try, I will always be a disappointment.


  1. People in this world are more than happy to put you down in order to build themselves up...don't make your life tougher by putting yourself down for them. It matters not if you disappoint others...only if you disappoint yourself. Either you did your best learning these concepts, and the teacher was unreasonable with time, in which case you can be proud of the project as well as yourself. Or, you need to improve your speech skills to fit all of your ideas into a time allowance, in which case, not being concise is simply
    something to work on, not anything to be ashamed of.

  2. Thank you for the feedback and advise.

    However, I think that I would find it easier to agree with you if this was not just one more event to add to the continuous and ever-increasing list of failures that this semester has been for me.

    And we were being as concise as possible, except for one slide where I spent maybe a minute too long on the details. Our problem was that we picked a topic that was really just kind of out of our league and by the time we really got working on it, it was too late to change directions.

  3. Happens.

    Most topics are more expansive than you thought they were, once you get immersed in exploring them. School does ask you to put things in a box, more or less. That's difficult for bigger thinkers.

    Maybe if you looked at failure in another way? Edison said: I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work.

    Success is really only perseverance.