Thursday, September 30, 2010

I am so horny all the time these days.

It's getting really old.

I realized today that I have been subconsciously arranging the excess pillows on my bed to consume the extra space next to me so that it doesn't feel so empty at night.

I didn't really realize until tonight that I have been doing that.

It's...odd, really.

That my body could do such a distinct thing without me noticing.

But then again, my heart does beat.

My arms automatically go where I need them to go to interact with the world around me.

My legs carry me to the places that I am supposed to be every day.

So maybe it's not that surprising, after all.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Oh my goodness.

This is magnificent.

Monday, September 27, 2010

"Am I alive, or dead?"

"We don't have to think like that anymore. We're together now. Everything we've done is forgiven. Everything."

Sunday, September 26, 2010

I had a... sizable amount of gin last night at a house party.

It was all delicious, but I felt like crap all night while it was wearing off.

I don't think that I want to do that again.

I'm about to go dungeon master.

I'm going to try to start updating more regularly again.

This past week was just hell.


Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Wow, I am so busy!

I don't think that I have stopped doing work since I got my first assignment this semester.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Do yourself a favor and watch Ink.

It is by far the best independent film that I've seen in a long time.

Just so you know you have the right one, it was produced by Double Edge Films in 2009.

But check it out.

You will not be sorry.
I would give anything for just one more night with her.

Just one more night.

That's all.

I wanted a chance to say goodbye.

I wanted a chance to say thank you.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Okay...I guess I lied.

Today was out of control.

Between spending the whole day in the engineering building, finishing assignments right before the class in which they are due, taking a Thermodynamics test, working on economics, cooking dinner, having problems mid-cooking and having to run out for more ingredients, and then doing more schoolwork, I did not have time to update today. I will try my best for tomorrow, but I don't want to make promises that I can't keep.

I'm going to a wine tasting with a friend after class tomorrow. I'm very excited.


Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Expect a fairly substantial update tomorrow.

I have a Thermodynamics test to study for tonight, and that's eating up all of my time, but I do have some things to post about.

See you then.


Monday, September 13, 2010

I would love nothing more than to read all night tonight.

But I can't handle the quiet right now.
"I never thought that alcohol could ease the notion of the sadness.

Now what used to be a happy home done turned into some bad shit."

I am falling in love with Outkast. I'm pretty much just now discovering them and I've been going back and buying their albums lately.

I never listened to them when they were popular (I was in middle school -- seventh grade, I believe -- when "Hey-Ya!" came out) because I was going through my punk rock phase and was under the horribly mistaken impression that I was not allowed to listen to that kind of music because I would be betraying my "identity" as a "punk kid."

Who went to Catholic school.

And followed all the rules.

And ironed his clothes every morning (a habit which has stuck with me to this day).

I used to be such a moron.

I used to think that the world was mine.

I used to think that my actions on this earth mattered.

Thank goodness that science came into my life and shattered those presuppositions. 

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Move not because of the influence of an external rhythm.

Move because it is what your body has been built to do.
I drank a lot of gin last night.

I didn't get past tipsy, but I was close.

I woke up at 6:18 this morning more horny than I think I have ever been in my life.

This is really starting to get old.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

It seems as though my life as of late has just become a consecutive series of events in which my mind just screams "FUCK!" at me at varying levels of magnitude and emotion.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

I may not have much to say for the next few days.

Tonight might be the night that I finally get drunk.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

This feels so right.

It's hard to believe that I went the whole summer without this beautiful thing, and then an entire month with no watch at all.

I'm surprised I was even able to function.


Monday, September 6, 2010

The last time that my phone did anything was September 4th.

Somebody texted me by accident.

I feel so alone.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Well, I can't start wearing my watch until Tuesday at the earliest because the jeweler here in town is closed all weekend.

Now I have to wait until I get back to school to take it to a jeweler there.

Ugh...this is like torture for my wrist.


Saturday, September 4, 2010

I got my replacement watch yesterday.

I am so excited.

The past month without a watch has been the most painfully unnatural four weeks of my life.

That sentiment is localized around my wrist, of course.

That would be pretty extreme if I was talking about my overall mental well-being.

In fact, I've actually kind of enjoyed not wearing it.

It was nice to not check the time every thirty seconds.

But I'm glad to have it back.

I have to take it to the jeweler today and get another hole punched in the band so that I can start breaking the leather in again.

I can't wait to have it back on my wrist.


Friday, September 3, 2010

My cell phone actually rang tonight.

I got so excited when I heard the ringer go off.

It was a pizza delivery driver with the wrong number.