Tuesday, April 13, 2010

You know, I used to be happy.

Or, at least, I had managed to convince myself that I was.

But we'll assume that I was.

So...you know, I used to be happy.

And then I found science.

And my life has never been the same.

I don't even see the same way anymore.

And not out of some "profound new insight" or anything overly dramatic like that.

I literally just see differently. The physical sensation of sight has changed.

My mind hasn't been quiet for a long, long time now.

Not even in sleep.

I've tried countless things to make the thoughts stop.

To dull some of the pain.

There are times when I just don't want this anymore.

But how could I go back now?

How could I go back?


  1. That is why sometimes I see people who are christians or whatever and how happy they seem to be, how content they seem to be with what they are so sure is true. I do think that ignorance is bliss... though there are people who are not and they still manage to be very happy. I think. I don't know. But I guess some of us are just more... sensitive? I guess?
    Mmm, sometimes thoughts just overflows our minds and it just doesn't allow us to really be happy... or to sleep.

  2. My mind is so tired, but sleep doesn't help.