You know, I used to be happy.
Or, at least, I had managed to convince myself that I was.
But we'll assume that I was.
So...you know, I used to be happy.
And then I found science.
And my life has never been the same.
I don't even see the same way anymore.
And not out of some "profound new insight" or anything overly dramatic like that.
I literally just see differently. The physical sensation of sight has changed.
My mind hasn't been quiet for a long, long time now.
Not even in sleep.
I've tried countless things to make the thoughts stop.
To dull some of the pain.
There are times when I just don't want this anymore.
But how could I go back now?
How could I go back?