Sunday, September 27, 2009
For the past several nights, I have dreamed in great detail about hurting people.
Usually people I love.
I wake up questioning reality for several agonizing minutes until I realize that it was a dream.
It's making me fear sleep.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Anyway, I have been having some really bad tooth problems lately. One single tooth on the bottom left side of my jaw has been extremely sensitive lately. It started at Burger King, where I ate a hot fry and it sent a quick, stabbing pain through my jaw. I was shocked by this occurrence, but could not get it to happen again despite many failed attempts, and therefore did not worry about it. It kept happening intermittently throughout the past week or so, when two days ago I was drinking some delicious strawberry-kiwi Kool-Aid in my apartment, and the coldness of the beverage caused a searing, thought-stopping pain in my mouth of a magnitude that I've never experienced. I am willing to say that it is some of the most pain I have been in in a good while. So, ever since then, I have either been drinking with a straw, through the side of my mouth, or just grimacing wildly after every sip. Letting things sit out until they equalize to room temperature is the safest way, but when it comes to beverages, I am impatient.
I never realized how much I took the ability to pour fluids down my maw for granted until it started causing me pain like the fires of a thousand suns.
Anyway, this needs to stop, or I'm going to have to go to the dentist.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Adventure games such as Zelda and Starfox Adventures were at one point my favorite genre of video games. I have many many fond memories of playing adventure games growing up. Zelda, Banjo-Kazooie, Donkey Kong 64, Luigi's Mansion, Rocket: Robot on Wheels, Vexx...the list goes on and on. I don't really understand what happened to that genre. I guess developers just don't feel like there's a market for those kinds of games anymore now that gaming has gone mainstream.
People just want their fast-paced, ADD encouraging action games and shooters, I guess. Game developers are just making what they know will make them money. They make what is safe and they don't try new things and I really hate it. My favorite hobby is being destroyed by the mainstream public.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Anyway, today was a terrible day. I got about two hours of sleep last night because I had to stay up all night to "finish" my Differential Equations homework. I still had to leave three problems blank. Then I had to come back and cram for a Chem test that I had this afternoon. Then I had my three hour lab immediately afterwards. After that I took a break and ate and ran some errands with my girlfriend. And now I am here, sitting down and settling in to another sleepless night of Circuits and Thermodynamics homework.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Is a shred of free time too much to ask? Thirty minutes?
I'll take anything.
I had a quiz today in Differential Equations that I didn't get to study for because I spent the whole night last night doing Chemistry homework. I failed the quiz. I hate myself for it. He did the problems afterwards and they were super easy. I just wasn't prepared.
I never have any down time anymore. I spend every minute of every week doing work, and when I'm not doing work, I feel guilty about putting off my work to the point that it ruins whatever I'm doing.
I don't know how much longer I can keep this up. I'm starting to feel like I'm not good enough for engineering. It's really kicking my ass.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
I am noticing as I pack up to head back to Columbia that many of my PS2 game cases have warped over time. They have bowed up as though a great weight has been slowly and increasingly exerted upon them over long periods of time.
To many, this is silly. As long as the games are okay, right?
Well...to me, a self-proclaimed video game collector who owns almost 300 games for various consoles, this is a horrible prospect.