Sunday, September 27, 2009


I have been having terrible nightmares lately.

For the past several nights, I have dreamed in great detail about hurting people.

Usually people I love.

I wake up questioning reality for several agonizing minutes until I realize that it was a dream.

It's making me fear sleep.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Nothing but the Tooth

Did anybody else watch Winnie the Pooh growing up as rampantly as I did?

Anyway, I have been having some really bad tooth problems lately. One single tooth on the bottom left side of my jaw has been extremely sensitive lately. It started at Burger King, where I ate a hot fry and it sent a quick, stabbing pain through my jaw. I was shocked by this occurrence, but could not get it to happen again despite many failed attempts, and therefore did not worry about it. It kept happening intermittently throughout the past week or so, when two days ago I was drinking some delicious strawberry-kiwi Kool-Aid in my apartment, and the coldness of the beverage caused a searing, thought-stopping pain in my mouth of a magnitude that I've never experienced. I am willing to say that it is some of the most pain I have been in in a good while. So, ever since then, I have either been drinking with a straw, through the side of my mouth, or just grimacing wildly after every sip. Letting things sit out until they equalize to room temperature is the safest way, but when it comes to beverages, I am impatient.

I never realized how much I took the ability to pour fluids down my maw for granted until it started causing me pain like the fires of a thousand suns.

Anyway, this needs to stop, or I'm going to have to go to the dentist.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

I have been playing Starfox Adventures again lately. I never finished it and wanted to say that I have done so, but when I started back up I was so lost that I just started over. It's a lot of fun. It's good to play an adventure game again. It's basically Zelda with Starfox instead of Link, but that's really not a bad thing.

Adventure games such as Zelda and Starfox Adventures were at one point my favorite genre of video games. I have many many fond memories of playing adventure games growing up. Zelda, Banjo-Kazooie, Donkey Kong 64, Luigi's Mansion, Rocket: Robot on Wheels, Vexx...the list goes on and on. I don't really understand what happened to that genre. I guess developers just don't feel like there's a market for those kinds of games anymore now that gaming has gone mainstream.

People just want their fast-paced, ADD encouraging action games and shooters, I guess. Game developers are just making what they know will make them money. They make what is safe and they don't try new things and I really hate it. My favorite hobby is being destroyed by the mainstream public.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

It's raining in Columbia. I was driving in it earlier, and the newly paved roads are so reflective when wet that you can't even see the dotted lane lines because of the glare. It is beautiful. Dangerous, but beautiful. The strip of traffic lights on Assembly streets formed a kind of surreal urban Aurora Borealis. I want to move somewhere where the beauty of rain is always apparent.

Like Seattle.

Anyway, today was a terrible day. I got about two hours of sleep last night because I had to stay up all night to "finish" my Differential Equations homework. I still had to leave three problems blank. Then I had to come back and cram for a Chem test that I had this afternoon. Then I had my three hour lab immediately afterwards. After that I took a break and ate and ran some errands with my girlfriend. And now I am here, sitting down and settling in to another sleepless night of Circuits and Thermodynamics homework.



Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Looks like I'm staying up late to do work again tonight. I have been working every minute that I haven't been in class today, and I've still got work to do. Yesterday was the same way.

Is a shred of free time too much to ask? Thirty minutes?

I'll take anything.
I am so tired of failing things. I have done nothing but work this semester, and I have yet to make a good grade.

I had a quiz today in Differential Equations that I didn't get to study for because I spent the whole night last night doing Chemistry homework. I failed the quiz. I hate myself for it. He did the problems afterwards and they were super easy. I just wasn't prepared.

I never have any down time anymore. I spend every minute of every week doing work, and when I'm not doing work, I feel guilty about putting off my work to the point that it ruins whatever I'm doing.

I don't know how much longer I can keep this up. I'm starting to feel like I'm not good enough for engineering. It's really kicking my ass.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Oh I want to move to Seattle!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

I almost went out and bought the ingredients to make mint chocolate chip merangues today, but my wallet got the best of me, and I decided against it. I may chicken out and go back and get the stuff tomorrow, though. I really want to make some.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

There is a man in my solids class who typically brings two or three twenty-ounce bottles of Coke Zero to class with him. He also typically drinks all of them before class is over. It is outrageous.

I understand thirsty people. I am one of them. I can drink and drink and drink and never be satiated. If you spend any time with me, you will notice that when I am not out somewhere, I almost always have some sort of liquid at hand. So I understand the desire to surround oneself with beverages. But this man confounds me. How can somebody possibly drink three bottles of Coke Zero? First of all, it tastes bad. And secondly, how can one consume so much carbonated liquid in a fifty minute time-period? I don't understand. He defies nature.

I thought it was weird, but today it became outright comical. I guess he got tired of carrying around several bottles of Coke Zero at all times, because today he apparently decided to just screw it and bring in a two-liter.
I woke up horribly ill last night at three in the morning to a wonderful surprise thunderstorm. It was wonderful, that is, until I got a stabbing pain in the back of my head, my skin started to crawl, and my stomach began to feel as though something terrible was trying to leap out of it. I got up and stumbled in a delirious, dizzy stupor to my bathroom, at which point I hesitated over the sink, feeling just fine for a brief moment, and then vomited violently into the toilet.

I think the culprit was a gyro that I ate for dinner last night. I thought that the tzatziki sauce tasted a little off, but at that point I had already committed to it. Stopping mid-gyro is a sin of the highest degree.

So I had a pretty terrible morning. I did however, get to fall back asleep to the sound of rain on my window and distant rolls of thunder. That was a treat. I wish it rained here more often...

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Mechanics of Solids is a very stressful class.

Every turn of every question is just another opportunity to totally fuck up the entire rest of the question.

Monday, September 7, 2009

I am noticing as I pack up to head back to Columbia that many of my PS2 game cases have warped over time. They have bowed up as though a great weight has been slowly and increasingly exerted upon them over long periods of time.

To many, this is silly. As long as the games are okay, right? me, a self-proclaimed video game collector who owns almost 300 games for various consoles, this is a horrible prospect.